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It's getting worse out there than i had expected today. While I was driving today, I was almost hit not once but twice. The first time I was on my way to pick up the missus who's joining me for a show, travelling on ECP. This bloody "Mars-dah-3" driver don't what he is doing. All i can see was a "cina-man" acting like a "mat-driver" chaffeuring girls to downtown. Driving pretty slow he was. I was just on the right lane beside him, slightly behind, planning to speed past this poor man. But THIS BUGGER, decided to change lane and signalled. Nothing's wrong with that but he was signalling and changing lane at the same time. Still okay BUT he was changing right into my path. With lightning quick reflexes, I push the centre of the horning mechanism hard. He swerved back to his lane quickly. Shocked he must be. What an idiot. A couple of seconds more, two piles of metal scrapes and a few dead bodies might be found on the middle of the highway.

Same thing happened again after i had sent the missus back home after the show. I was on my way back and there was this taxi who also decided to change lane and signal at the same time, right into my path. Me horn he swerve. That taxi driver seems like he has been drinking or something. He looked pale.

These people are not exactly young, hot-blooded "racers". But are a couple of matured adults, at least in their 30s or 40s. Driving school never teach them to check the blind spots before changing lanes meh? Why they just suka-suka change? These people are dangerous on the road, I just had to horn them. Man i don't what will happened if I didn't notice them, but as always, I DO pay extra attention to vehicles just in front of me, on the left and right... Just in case they decided to suka-suka change lanes... Oh boy, I think I better change to bigger and louder horns for my new ride when it comes... Yeah. Can't wait for it to arrive.

Watched Bourne Ultimatum. The plot was pretty good, especially how the bad guys carried out their assassinations. It was out of the unexpected of all unexpected. The only bad thing about this movie was the shaky camera effects. Man, i almost puked. So many a times the camera was just shaking so violent whenever there's a fight scene, especially the one in the toilet. Bloody fight it was but the scene was too blurred and shaky that who the hell knows what happened in there!! Yes... and the missus looked extremely tired... as usual. Work must be pretty much hectic for her out there, yesss as we always said the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. Hmmm or is it?

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Your Sun Sign: Pisces
Sun 8° Pisces 30'


Element: Water
Key Planet: Neptune
Fish appear to be individuals, but have you ever seen a school of them swimming together? They act as one. Each is part of a greater whole. And you Pisces Fish are more aware of your interdependency than any other sign. It's as if you live in an ocean and the spirit that flows through you is like the one ocean that flows through all fishes. The symbol of the Fish is also the symbol of Christianity, the predominant religion during the past two thousand years -- also known to astrologers as the "Age of Pisces."

Motto: "Reality is just a shared illusion."

Greatest Strength: Your compassion for those in need

Possible Weakness: Confusion can put you at a disadvantage


Your Moon Sign: Leo
Moon 6° Leo 15'


Your emotions are powerful and often expressed dramatically. That's because feelings are meant to be shown and not held inside yourself. Sure, you don't want to expose all of your secrets, but generally putting them out in the open works best for you. It's part of the enthusiasm that you need to feel alive. Just getting by is not enough for you, which is why you don't always play it safe. But taking risks on a personal level gives you a sense of excitement that you absolutely need to be at your best. Sure, you can go overboard at times, but that's probably a better approach than sitting on the sidelines and going unnoticed. You're here to be seen, so there's no need to stay quiet or play it cool.

Motto: "If you feel it, show it."

Greatest Strength: Your urge to create, even if the odds are against you

Possible Weakness: Over-dramatizing your emotions


Your Rising Sign: Aquarius
Ascendant 25° Aquarius 43'


Aquarius Rising gives you an open-minded outlook on life. You're not one to get stuck with traditions that don't make sense to you. That's because you're an original, a person who's looking to make her or his own mark rather than following in anyone else's footsteps. And no matter how strong your feelings are, you tend to use your mind to help you back up and see things from a broad perspective. So you tend to look cool, maybe a little detached, even when you're steaming inside. There's a friendly way you have about you that makes you very likable. But when it comes to matters of principle, you're capable of digging in your heels and stubbornly standing up for your beliefs.

Motto: "I'm friendly, but not really like to rest of you."

Greatest Strength: Understanding what's best for the group

Possible Weakness: People don't see your passion

Your Chinese Sign: The Monkey


The MONKEY … THE MERRY MONKEY

Mantra: I live in my fantasy world.The Monkey never stops acting and reacting. He is clever and full of ideas and pranks, always entertaining his or her friends, of which he has many. Everything is competition, and the Monkey wants to be the fastest at everything. Ambitious and resourceful, Monkeys can sometimes be reckless and secretive about what they want to do. They prefer to rely only on their own resources and talents. The Monkey never stops being busy… even if it is only the mind that's at work.

Car nut

Yes. The time has arrived again.
To test my luck again with the authorities and the market.
Will i be able to strike gold?
Will the price plunge?
Will I get the COE??
I'm still waiting...

Another aimless week

Aimless because everyday on standby where to go and what to do. I'll never be able to get the right instructions until the very last minute. I may have to go to another location instead of the pre-planned one or to carry out some other tasks instead of the original idea. All-in-all, I feel like a puppet. You'll only get to go wherever the one controlling you wants you to and to carry out whatever he/she fancies.

Started running again today, with mixed results. Afternoon went for the liferun at the Turf City. It was just a 3.5km which was enough to test how well my knee had recovered. Started slow and steady and gradually increased my speed and momentum. Everything well right until the burst to the finishing area, legs were abit tired but nevertheless was well.

Went for a second round in the evening since ks and mz asked me to go, might as well try out how far my legs can carry me.

Bad decision.

After slightly more than 1km of running my right knee starts to feel pain again. Had no other choice but to stop. Guess i've made it worse after it had recovered. Think it's time to go for a checkup.

I just cannot trust people anymore

I'm feeling very upset and angry right now.

Someone just made me feel very, very foolish.

I don't feel that it was fair to me in any way.

Don't anyhow tell me to do this and do that.

Just so you can earn some $$$. I know you will eventually.

But not in this manner.

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*The story*

Recently just decided to buy my ride, which will definitely tie me down with a financial burden for the next 4 to 5 years. I'm ready for it anyway sooner or later, I was just feeling that it was the right time since the COE was down to the lowest at this moment.

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So I went around with a colleague of mine looking for a good deal. Finally decided on his recommended friend's relative, who was willing to cut his profit margins for me and give me some goodies. His offer was good too as he matched dollar for dollar with another PI that we visited and the the deal was transparent too.

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The upcoming COE bidding did not went as I've predicted. So I've decided to wait for the next round of bidding so I kindly told my PI about my decision. This good colleague of mine was very,very enthusiastic about it. He reminded me that the price will go higher if i don't take it now. He again and again used the kind of pushy attitude which I feel, was not right at all.

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"I can guarantee you that the next round of bidding will go higher! Trust me!"

"I confirm that the COE will go up. Tell my friend that you are willing to top up and get the COE now."

"Do it or you will regret it later when it goes higher. It sure will go up one lah!"

"You listen to me, it will go up. My brother-in-law waited like you last time. Then? he waited and waited until the COE goes very high, lan lan must buy liao."

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Fuck you. It's irritating and annoying. YOU SOUND LIKE A PUSHY SALESMAN. I choosed to ignore his suggestions and told him that I'll take the chance and wait. That was Wednesday.

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Just tonight, while I was happily having fun with a couple of my closest colleagues for a unplanned, adhoc prawning session, he sms-ed me.

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"Hey, you think you can try to cancel the deal with my friend?"

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I was puzzled so I asked why.

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"TT (another ex-colleague, who's now working as a PI saleswoman) is selling cars too. Can buy from her. Actually looking for ppl to buy car from her there, she give half her comms to me. My friend there now get nothing."

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Why the hell do I want to buy from her when I'm already in a deal? Fuck. Who the hell is gonna refund me the deposit I paid if I cancel the deal?

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"I just asking lah, cos I tot my friend say is flexible mah, if dun wan can take back the deposit mah.Maybe give excuse that the highest COE bid only 16k to 17k. See based on this whether he ca refund u anot?" But don tell him I teach u."

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The whole sage sums up the whole conspiracy theory that i came up with: He's trying to make money and a fool out of me.

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1) The initial deal I guess, if I was to buy there and then, probably he'll get some commission. No wonder he kept pestering me and persuading me to get the deal done even though the COE is damn out of my expectations. He also employed some scare tactics ie, COE will go higher!

2) Now he tells me to try get the refund and buy from another person so he can get his little commission.

3) He abused my trust in him.

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I'm feeling upset because of several things. He made a fool out of me because it was my first time to get my own ride. I had no experience and whatsoever, why is he doing this just for some $$$? He also indirectly abused my trust and faith in him. I trusted his judgement and more important I valued the friendship. Now i know it's cost $$$. So you get nothing now you want to get something so you ask me to suka-suka change from A to B lah? I don't care whether B is giving a better deal or not. It disappointed me very much with such friend... if I can still call him a friend...He doesn't even care if I'll lose my deposit or not, it's not his $2,000 anyway... "try to cancel the deal lah...", "don't say i teach you..." FUCK YOU. So what if you need to support your kid and family and need to earn a little extra? You made me feel like a fool to trust you, if you don't get anything from the first deal, that's your problem. Don't tell me to change and try to get a refund so you can get your measly little commission. I don't care since you don't care either.

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I'm sticking with this PI and I'm gonna find out what the hell is going on. Probably I'll even rat on you to get a better deal from the PI. I don't care anymore.

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Who cares anyway? Everyone is just out there making $$$ from friends. Even my closest childhood friend cheated me a few thousand dollars. I was really dumb to trust him. Friends who lied to me severely were never seen or dealt with again.

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Who can I trust? No one... ...

Not even her anymore. She said before she don't like running at all and has never join us for any of our runs. So why is she doing the SHAPE RUN all of the sudden?

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In this world no one can be trusted.

The one person that I can totally

depend on and trust

is MYSELF.

xingxing

過去的溫暖隨著時間流逝
夢里牽著溫柔的雙手
如雾中若映若现
只剩揮散不去的思念

甜蜜的愛情
像那脆弱的榕树
默默的枯萎
濃濃的回憶
似飄落的葉子
慢慢的被秋風吹散

心中熟悉的容顏
悄悄的如煙消失
沉默以久的心情
随风带走寂寞的思绪
一切結束的太快
永遠都無法釋懷

Recent happenings

F**king shit... this is the second time i'm writing after the first one was delete somehow by the stupid system...
One crude phrase to sum up the past week...
I've f**ked up big time.
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Don't think i'll be able to training running for the time being.
Don't think I can pass my september papers.
Worst, think i'm gonna lose my movie kaki...
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The irritating sores and sharp pains to my legs was getting worse.
It's killing me whenever i walked up/down the stairs.
Was it worth it when i did the run? I guess it was not.
It the price that i've to pay for being so foolish.
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Everything seems to be going so smoothly until the last paper. Then it hitted me
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What the hell are the questions about???
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*scribble scribble scribble*
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"Time's up. Put down your pens and submit your papers. NOW."
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*Sigh*
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To top off the bad week, was supposed to watch some movies with friends. Then found out that the movie was already full since booking was opened two weeks ago
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Afterwhich, was supposed to follow up with another movie at another location with just my movie kaki. When I arrived to buy tickets, it turned out to be a disaster.
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"Sorry, just left the first 2 rows."
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Okay, never mind. At least there was another alternative as both shows were yearned to be watched.
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"Still have seats, but seperate. You still want?"
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Bummer.No show, no go.
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Everything seems to have gone wrong that day. Quietly, we just went somewhere to eat and drink abit. Can see that movie kaki was kinda tired and bored. sleepy too.
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Then we meet up with some friends for another round of eat and drink abit. Movie kaki suddenly seems to be much more lifely and awaken... guess i know when i'm not wanted
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No matter, for there are other more important things to worry about right now.
Preparations for the nov papers, the one-man-do-all project that i'm being chased after by my immediate boss, my new car...
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Yes. you hear me right. I'm getting the car.Now.
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At this point of time rather than waiting for the end of the year. Since COE is down, might as well take the chance to hope for a lower price. It might shoot back up. But then again, it might be the same as the end of the year, so why not take the chance now? HARKHARK...
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I supposed that is what they mean by, "you win some, you lose some."