Okay, i guessed this is it.

After a close friend had been at the receiving the end of my bad behaviour and attitude (according to the victim that it was not an pleasant experience and our friendship was in jeopardy, seriously it was that bad and I hate myself even more for being so oblivious) i found myself to be more mentally disturbed, emotionally unstable and becoming more insensitive and less aware of my surroundings towards the feelings of others. In order to put things right, i'll have to change. Immediately.

PS: don't find me.

PSS: sorry to everyone that i've pushed so far all these years.