累

地球不停地继续在转动
时光也一天一天的流过
我的世界变得越来越沉没
仿佛眼前一片暗淡乌黑
生活一点色彩也没了

从前生气蓬勃的我
已经不存在了
快乐喜悦的心情
也已离我而且去

我的身心开始变得疲惫
累了
到底是怎么了？

無聊的一天

心情還是很爛，很沉默，
心裡的結始終還是無法打開。
雖然已經過了很久了，
為什麼還是放不下呢？
haiz...


星期天
參加mizuno run
跟 mz & ks
一起跑10 km
mq虽然没有跑，
但是他陪yp去，
为她打气... :D

一早起来时，
突然发现下大雨，
但是我决定还是去，
至少还得拿
the goodie bags!

Luckily
我们去到那里时，
雨已经停了。
开始时还OK啦，
ks 突然跑掉了，
把我跟mz抛下... ...
人潮也开始多了，
跑道又很狭窄，
开始变的很困难。
更糟糕的是，
地面上有很多
water puddles,
有一些人为了竞争，
不管别人，
开始缵来缵去，
run on the puddles,
and splash the
water on the rest
of the runners...
without saying
"Sorry"... ...

YAH, 3 CHEERS TO
THE SPIRIT OF COMPETITION.


还有更worse的。
跑到一半，
来到了一个很拥挤的地点。

someone shouting instructions
to us runners:

A:
"... those running less than 10km turn right,
the rest go straight ahead..."

brilliant instructions.
who are those running less than 10km?
a) you mean those 5km runners,
b) or those 10km runners who run halfway?

nevertheless,
我们不知道该跑向那个方向，
问了很多人，也没人知道。
so we ran straight
但我们开始怀疑了，
getting lesser and lesser people running.
There are also two other
events held around the area.
SO MANY PEOPLE,
so who is who???
CONFUSION SETS IN.
Where are we heading?
as we are getting nowhere,
so we stopped running.
And headed back to the point
where the person was shouting.
It was disappointing,
to stop halfway,
probably less than 5km even.

当我们回到那时，
我们发现那是 ending point!
很多人跟我们一样，
lost and confused.

There was no proper
signs & directions.
There was no marshallers
along the route.
There was no proper
crowd control.
There was no good
handling of the event.

Collection of the goodie bags
was also a total disaster!
There was a long queue of
people but it's not moving
at all.
Everyone was jumping queue,
they just head towards the
collection counter and cut into
collect their share.
I did that too.
Because the distribution system
sucks.
If they can cut queue, so can I.
There was no proper control.
=_=

I shall not talk about how we lost
contact with ks.
Because he run so far ahead of us,
we lost him.
We could not link up with him at
the designated point,
because he was not there.
HAHAHA!
I think we lost him,
or he lost us.
We looking for him, he looking for us.
I reckon he'll do it.
He'll run home then contact us later.
Sure enough, he called back from his home.
Imagine,
other people run 10km, he run 17km.
Just an ordinary thinking soldier he is.

Got sponsorship on degree courses offered
by my employer, should i take it?
HMMMM... ... a point to ponder...

The day I feel lazy

*Re-edited as i was not sane the first time round*

I'm blogging in english because it's so much faster
that i can spend more time on my psp and sleep.
I don't get enough sleep anyway,
but i need to sleep early so type faster.

Anyway, went shopping with mz for ks bdae
gift, we shortlisted a few stuff but still not yet
really decided what to buy. Still got a few days
more to go anyway not in a rush, i mean, c'mon.
He has everything that he needs, what does he
lack of? He doesn't need much and neither does
he had any desires for anything materialistic.

We also went for some retail therapy, but didn't
bought anything.
Well, can't decide lah. This looks good. That looks
cool. That's so yucky. Those strips make me look
meaty...

It's probably time HE should move on.
Let's just face it.
It's probably Fated.
No point dwelling on it anymore.
Besides, There was no
affections for him in the beginning
such a sad ending... =_=
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Prawning is the latest craze in town,
at least in my office.
Bought lots of gears and equipment for
the up-and-coming hobby of all times.
It's not just fun to me,
I get to eat the prawns too.
We have officially formed a WPC.
what's a WPC?
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WEEKEND PRAWNING CLUB! ^_^

我喜歡跑步，但是不要叫我 "elite"

跑步是我的 hobby，
我也很熱愛運動。

但是我並不會
obsess with it,
或像莫一些人煉到
〉走火入魔〈
〉登峰造極〈
的境界啦！！！

但是，
最近有很多事困擾著
我的愛好。
我想要參加大多數的
跑步活動：
Passion Run,
Mizuno Run,
Army Half-Marathon / Marina Bay Run,
New Balance Real Run,
and finally the queen of all runs...
STANDCHART MARATHON!!!

但是，就是有一些在
management level
的人，以為自己很棒，
上過報，拿獎牌，
或者跑步比一般的
普通人快，
call themselves the cream of the crop.
害到我不敢在放工后，
留下來跑步了。
我也不敢跟同事們說我的愛好，
不然，people will say i am elite.
I AM NOT OKAY?

那些 management level
的人還想勸
people to join the AHM
AND register with them.
SO THAT CAN TRAIN TOGETHER.
拜託啦!!!
我可不想跟你們混在一起 lor!
我 train 我的，
你們 train 你們的。
不要把我拉進去。
別說我 "buay steady", not cohesive,
no team spirit, no camaraderie.

I run for the enjoyment of running,
NOT for people to scream and shout at me
to run faster.
OR say that I don't put in effort to run.
OR comment that my timing is poor.

PLEASE.
YOU ARE KILLING MY FUN.

I run for myself, not for you.
Running is my hobby,
my enjoyment.
NOT FOR YOU TO DECIDE.
DON'T YOU DARE SPOIL MY FUN.

我的这一天

今早起来感觉很疲惫。
无精打采的。
可能是睡眠不足吧。
但是还是模模糊糊的
赶快准备出门，
去搜索及购买旅行的
配备和一些必需品。

旅程的其中一个景点，
是要到Mt Everest
的 Base Camp 啦！
买了一个subzero的
睡袋，价钱虽不便宜，
到时候会派上用场的。

今天真的有够无聊的...
大家得参加团体活动，
但大多数的人都没兴趣。
还好跟几个同事去钓虾，
满有意思的又好玩。

一阵天不知道为什么，
我的脑带一片空白。
没有什么思考的。
也没什么烦恼的。
真的很空，很空。
仿佛好像行尸走肉咧，
一点生命力也没有。
好可怕喔... ...

累了吗？

人始终是会累的。
人累了就得休息。

今晚，她看起来已经精疲力竭了。
繁忙的一周耗尽了她所有的精神。
那双灿烂又迷人的眼神，
已经开始变的迷迷糊糊了。

最后，

他该说的，想说的，始终没机会说出口。
就算说了也无济于事反而只会弄巧反拙。

命运三翻四次的阻拦他，
这可能就是他的宿命吧。

本想向她探索以久的答案，
对他来说已经不重要了。
再也没有那个需要去问了。

Time is not my friend (bloody title bar still cannot work)

Second weekday of the week. Many things do not seem to look too bright for me at the moment. WITS project need to be completed by end August and what do I have today? = Last minute instructions and deadlines. What kind of final product can i come up with in a short span of 1 1/2 months? I pretty sure it will be a fucked-up one. Sad to say, we have chosen a wrong project at the wrong time although it is a good one, but without much time to work on it, I guess will be to beg for more time to be given to us. It's a sideshow for Pete's sake! On top of the routine paper works, studies and examinations woes, it adds a bit more of pressure on the TOP. Need at least 10 weeks to develop not 6...

Speaking of which, i don't really like time at all, not a bit at the moment. I not just complaining about the amount i need for various activities but also the exact moments.

It's always the wrong time whenever i had planned something...special i guess. Who knows/cares what i planned is special or not? As long as i planned it, i think... it's special to me. Anyway, somehow or rather, friends will unintentionally just throw "spanners" or "monkey wench" to the PLAN. I don't mind that at all, really as long as it thawed/spoilt the PLAN. But NOoooo... ... it always forced me into an awkward dilemma, to make "the BIG decision" whether to continue with the planned activities or not. I could choose either ways, i meant, we could choose either ways, to join them or not....

ARGH! I have planned a dinner and for the rest of the day to be relaxing but NOoooo... you guys / gals then messaged everyone to meetup for dinner because you're freed from your heavily scheduled work and wanted to do a little catchup... I feel very disappointed if i kill off my plans and i will also feel "paiseh" if i don't go meet up with you guys... the timings are all wrong. Not saying that i don't like to meet up with you guys i loved too, but why can't it happened on another day or to someone else? why ME? More likely i think "TIME" is playing me out. Always "spanner-ed" me and the PLANs, never let me do what i wanted to do. this sucks.

Other thoughts for the day. ( this is my title, the title bar cannot be used mah!)

I've waited for a long time for the reply liao. I don't know, probably she has forgotten, perhaps she does not wanna hurt my feelings, maybe she does not wanna really bother about it, who knows? Probably it's best not to ask her about anything regarding it and add on to the unnecessary pressure. I don't know either.

Everything seems so okay leh, maybe it's just a fig of my imagination.

I don't wanna feel regretful for not doing anything anymore.

In the past, i had regretted many a times too many already for not doing anything, and missed out on the opporunities.

Waited 6 months already. i feel that the time is now. It's abit too long and draggy leh. It may not be a wise decision but i think i'll take a step forward first. Now.

Cannot type in the title, that sucks!

July begins... Lots of stuff happened on July... last year haha.

Participated in the Passion Run held in East Coast Park in the early morning. Considering that i have not been running for the past 3 to 4 weeks, i had planned to skip it, but shelved that idea. I needed to run and going for that event helps, just hope that i don't get myself hurt... badly. Met up with a few colleagues at the Starting Point. The starting was good and slow due to the congestion of large number of people participating and the short width of the running path does not help matter either.

I ran with a pace that was abit too fast for 10km, probably suitable for a 5km run definitely not a 10km. By the time i reached the 5km turning point, i was cursing and swearing at how far it was and out of breathe. Subsequently, i used the run-and-walk technique to gain back control of my breathing. By the end of the run, i was out of steam and my knee caps hurted... for the rest of the day. My legs are crampy too, think i overdo it. Sigh, should have relac-relac run...

Went watched DieHard4.0 with sj in the late afternoon. Pretty nice show with a good plot and of course MAGGIE Q~! Stunning looking babe, she looks hot playing that baddie role, too bad they scripted her character to die... so horribly. Haha, usually pretty girls don't die so horribly. The greatest overhyped part of the show was near the ending of the movie, where the X-35 fighter hunting the truck. I mean, com'on man, X-35 cannot hover and manouver like that leh, VTOR technology is only use for take off and landing. It's not easy to take off and land like that either, manouvering it so smoothly as depicted in the show is much more close to impossible. But it's an action movie, what else to do to capture the audiences' minds? But someone definitely not so fascinated about it, especially when she fell asleep during the scene above haha. Probably too much action for her.

After show, went down to Club Pine Close to meet up with yj, cla, roo & angie, ks for dinner. DaBao-ed from airport rd hawker center. I had the opporunity to carry lebron for the first time to the hawker center. boy was he heavy (for me of course, i had to carry him all the way there). I was profusely sweating all over and the heat was not helping either even though there are fans around. Well, he's a handful now that he learnt two things.

1. He can now stand up straight.
2. Now can stand up, walking and running was a breeze.

he doesn't mind falling though. Well, it's normal for babies like him to learn to fall and crawl and get back up again. Soon, he'll be running around, his parents will now train to chase him after a period of training their arm powers (carrying him from places to places). He's definitely a HANDFUL.

Another weekend coming to an end, felt fully recharged and ready for another week of chaos and flurry working schedules. *sigh* Project still half done and only did a bit of revision before the upcoming semester assessment, i wonder if i can make it in time. Better focus on studies first for the next couple of months.

Was quite a boring weekend, needless to say at least. Not much outing with the rest for the couple of weeks. mq injuried his knee last week during our routine basketball session, will be out for at least a month. Hope he can get better with good care and a speedy recovery. ks is as nuah as ever, while the rest are mostly busy with other committments. Well, the upcoming plans for the my long vacation trip seems to be on schedule according to the... plans. Just need to iron out several issues, especially the costs, haahaa. Definitely need to be much lower than the initial quoted rates, guess we will have to compromised on several other items on the itinerary.

Went ks house to do my project in the night time yesterday, not really very smooth in the beginning as i did not know how to start and what to write about. Lucky, my best buddy during my secondary school days was online to help me out once again with the contents. Really appreciated his efforts and helpfulness. We plan to watch S-league matches but damn but always misses the scheduled timings. Still got a few more matches left, let's just hope that there are enough opporunities to catch at least three.

Saw sj online too and had a short coversation, she was feeling abit faminish and so was I. SO, it was decided there and then that we could meet up and grab some bites in the middle of the night at the hk cafe. Went to the newly open store at ECP but later found out that they are not 24 hours, bummer. Luckily the one at Upper East Coast Road was not disappointing and we were able to feed the monsters growling in our tummies. Spent quite some time catching up and chatting about work, people around us, latest happenings, what each other have been doing and etc. Had decided to buy a new pair of soccer boots at "mustafik" after sending her back home, but i took a wrong turn and heading towards the tour agency for my trip. Realising my mistake, i gave up and head home.

Bloody hot day playing soccer in the morning. Did a lot of running and chasing the ball, too bad my control of the ball was extremely poor today resulting in many misses and loosed passes. Probably because i didn't play for quite some time already, or maybe i'm getting old. Trying to bake a buttercake at the moment, don't know how it will turn out. I hope it doesn't get burnt, at least.

Friday Blues

Woke up in a flurry to make room for mom and co. to clean the house scheduled for this morning. As time was precious and tight they will have to work quick. I was clearing my personal admin stuff and most importantly, finding out the repayment scheme available for my income tax. It took me quite some time to get it all sorted out. But alas, she never told me how quickly i have to be and I got screwed for being a slow-bugger and obstruction, blaming me for slowing her down. Worst, things of the past were unearthed once again and it let from one thing to another as the she goes on and on. A headache inevitably caused and I had to leave the premises quickly before i get another potentially dangerous whiplash. Reasoning with her does not help at all as it adds more fuel to the fire and keeping silence is not going to work either as it makes her blood boils seeing me. So I decided to make a quick exit, just pack my stuff and left asap. I don't feel happy at all whenever she loses her cool. Most of the time, things happened just because she choosed to do it, especially her volunteering work. But whenever something is amiss, we will get the blame. We hinder her. We obstruct her path. We did not ofter any help. "If cannot handle it, don't go ofter help to do it."

Met up with several colleagues at the sin ming ave prawning area. It was my first time prawning today. Had thought that it was similiar to fishing but found out later that it was much more simplified and more fun. No fanciful reel needed, no heavy weights and endless fishing lines needed. Just a long prawning rod, a long enough fishing line and a hook and viola! Can start prawning already. ^_^ $30 per pax for 3 hours of prawning fun was abit steep, but luckily we caught more than 100 prawns plus a gigantic one and a couple of medium-size ones. Man, they are bigger than the normal ones by 10 or even 20 times. Took my mind off and felt relax while prawning, something that i needed since this morning. Or even for the past few months. Been planning to get a fishing rod and equipment, so that can go bedok jetty to fish since so nearby. Really need to find one day go buy + a prawning rod too!

The day ended with a Happy Hour session with a BBQ. Food was abundle + the prawns that we have caught and everyone had their fill. Feeling abit sad that one of the colleagues is leaving us to pursue a career elsewhere, wishes him all the best to his future endeavours and such blah blah blah. We eat, drink, sing and make merry until late night. It was one of the funniest Happy Hour i had attended. When others left us, nothing was organised for them at all. This is definitely one of the greatest idea the others had thought up with. It shows our appreciations to the hardwork and dedications that colleague had given us and it will not be forgotten. I felt a sense of lost, like an old friend is leaving. Who will be next? :(

Communications Problems

Yessssss! Got a 2 days leave approved! A well deserved long break at the right time. Gonna do some running and sports to work up my body for the upcoming 10km run at ECP. PassionRun ha, just run for fun, i ain't no hardcore runner and i don't expected myself to run like world fastest men Michael Johnson or Donovan Bailey or any other running enthusiasts. I just enjoy running. Like I have said before, I can find solace and peace when i do running. A clear mind while the body moves automatically with a constant breathing system working throughout the run, it feels great. Will also get a fishing rod when i'm free.


Had a very fruitful day working today even though had to stay back for a couple of hours more, but i guess it was worth it. I had a hard time convincing my fellow colleagues and my immediate superior on my theory about some stuff regarding a certain project. I believed that my theory was the right one but the rest think otherwise. How did it happened i didn't know, but all i knew was that in my mind and my heart, i am right. I had to go through with them over and over again about my theory and everytime they were not convince and pointed out strongly that i was wrong. I felt the pressure was all over me. It was not a nice feeling actually, when you are alone fighting to prove a valid point while the rest are against you. They were already being misled to believe that they were right, while in actual fact they weren't.


Especially when the superior, who has more experience, is also against your point. It was harder to convince him. It was EVEN HARDER to prove that he and the rest were wrong too. Our discussion became more and more intense, and with every passing moment, it became a heated debate over whose theory was right and wrong. It came to a point where i could feel that the rest were getting very frustrated and angry that they could just whack me in the face and tell me straight to "wake up my idea". But i persisted that i was right. I don't know why and i almost gave in. In my mind i was thinking: "maybe i was wrong and they are right. maybe i didn't get my facts right." I could see the frustration in my superior, his blood seems boiling as I kept disagreeing with their theory repeatedly and trying to convince them with mine. It seems to him that I'm a "knuckle-head" and i could not get what he is trying to telling me into my "thick skull". Many unpleasant thoughts were running through my mind at that point of time. I could feel the tension mounting on everybody including me. If i give in at that point of time, definitely it will be worse for me in the near future. I didn't. I stick to my points and stood my ground. With my last bit of faith and confidence, i decided to push on again one last time. Slowly one by one they started to see what i see, and were finally convinced that I was right all along, even though they jokingly commented that "I didn't put it in a more clearer view" to them.


Frankly speaking, i feel that they were already getting restless with me. Probably it was because that i had a track record of "unable to understand at first time" in many situations. Sometimes, I had to be told two or more times before i realised what is happening. I had inevitably created a bad impression on myself. I could be labelled "slow", "illogical", "uncomprehensive". No wonder people will easily brush me off. No one can understand what i was trying to explain. Maybe it's the way i talked / present myself. Or the way i tried to argue my points, seems like i cannot do that very well and others tend to less receptive towards me.
I felt lost and hopeless. I kept asking myself, "am i so uncomprehensible?"

Had a talk with my ex-supervisor about this matter. Advised me to hold back abit and slowly lead others to my idea, then let them see what i see. He added that it could be me that was right but at the end of the day, i didn't do myself any favor. "it is easy to do the talking, but harder to convince others." He is right and i could not agree more. What's the point of discussing what's right and what's wrong when it was getting more tensed and heated as the discussion goes on and on? Everyone's frustrated including me. So do i just let them be first and find out their mistakes while letting time tell that i was eventually right? I couldn't do that, especially when timing plays a crucial part. I had to make those certain decisions that could damage my relationship with my colleagues further but i had no choice. All i can do was damage control and fix the problems in the near future, although it will take a long period of time. The perils i have face each and everyday, do you really think that i am actually smiling everyday?

Work is fun for me

It has been a slow start for the beginning of the last week of this month. Was feeling sleepy throughout the day. Normally I'll feel more awake after lunch but today was different. I dozed off a number of times on different occasions and at different places, until i had my first coffee in the later afternoon teabreak. Guess i should have grab one in the early morning. I need almost 3-5 servings of coffee a day. But it hasn't been easy since i'm still awake after 12am. Drink too much, too awake to sleep, drink too little and i dozed off during working hours. I need to find the balance or else i'll be in trouble really soon if i'm not careful enough.

Just checked on my number of vacation days left. Apparently, I haven't been taking much day offs as expected. Now almost half of the year has gone by, yet i still have more than a month of day offs. I still have a bunch of off-in-lieu too. Have clear a bunch of those, but somehow more came in form of no MC, job well done and etc. More like you clear 1 day OIL, you get 1 day OIL free! I don't know why. People say i work too much and stay back too often. Some even crack jokes about it.

"Why don't you take 2 days leave? Then come back to work. Let others go on leave on your behalf."

I agreed that I stay back too often and i work too much, but i did that mainly because the work was hard to comprehend and i need more time to understand what was going on. So instead of putting it off until tomorrow or next week, might as well stay back for awhile to make sure i know what had happened. I'm not hardworking or what, just that i need more time to understand certain issues and things. Sometimes i find work is fun, never too bored for me. Others say i'm crazy, some say i'm slow, whatever they say, they are right. I'm a slow learner and i'm crazy about my work. ^_^

Planning Ahead

Finally, can catch a short month break. It has been really a fulfilling time for the past couple of months with work and lessons. Endless homework keep coming in while a steady flow of work targets and objectives needs to be achieved. Late nights burning midnight oil is a must and thankfully weekends are the required recharge periods that i can take time to sleep longer. Plus a work improvement project. It's really an icing on the cake. Embarking on a journey to develop some software, don't know if can work, IT BETTER BE WORKING WHEN I'M DONE WITH IT IN TIME FOR THE EXHIBITION... It may sounds like a break, but it's not. I just need the time to do my stuff and I'm just lucky that it falls in JULY, can plan for my holiday trip in OCTOBER. Really hope it can go through, I need a long vacation since the last one, two years ago. Targets to be set for the second half of 2007:

1) pass my exams by SEPTEMBER
2) go for my long vacations (2 weeks!)
3) get my own set of wheels

conditions 2) and 3) will be happily dealt with once condition 1) is fully met. MUST MAKE IT HAPPEN.

What i really want to do is to get what i want... but not everything that i want, i can get. Yah, i can get the above three if i work hard and diligently and of course with logic and plannings, these are doable. But for the rest... i guess when the time comes it will come. And if it doesn't? Well, probably I'll have to wait longer or maybe supposed it's not fated for me, for i'll come to a horrible death if i do haahaahaa... ... hmmm not amusing at all. Shit. Anyway, waiting is not the key to success, it's like waiting for durian to drop. I mean i got to face the facts, I cannot wait for the durian to drop. I got to pick my own durian. But then again, that durian does not seems to eagar to be picked because it is growing very high up in the tree and I thought i could get it but I was wrong... the tree grew higher one day, and it was so high until i could not reach it. The tree was like telling me,

"HEY BUGGER YOU! YOU CANNOT PICK THIS DURIAN! NOT FOR YOU! GO AWAY! SHOO!"

An additional new member to the family joined us last month. A chubby looking boy. Welcome aboard and may you have a pleasant stay with us. Eternally period.

1 x close friends of mine (a.k.a mz) finally told me what happened. Well, it's kinda weird when she does not talks to you or pay any attention to you, i.e. she is ignoring you. I can sense it. It's coming. She was p***ed with me. I can tell it. Hey come on we know each others for certain period now, of course i can tell when my close friends are angry with me. Well, I've made some unremarkable comments lately about her regarding certain issues and that's what made her blood boiled and the thermometer is like over 100 degrees... and *pop*

I didn't knew it until i find out from her. I was really tactless, insensitive and dumb to have said those things. Who knows how many others i had actually p***ed off with my comments? Worse things were, I thought those were harmless comments, but i didn't realised that I had hurt her feelings. I never realised that my comments could be something so harmful. I thought it was just plainly cute and playful but I never knew how wrong i was back then. Some famous figure recently said " ... acting dumb is no longer cute... " I totally agreed. From now on, no more acting stupid, less talk and more quietness to fill the air with serenity and peace.

Planning for the OCTOBER vacation trip was, well, it seems fun to go there. More closer to the wilderness and mother nature is the place where i am going. The altitude is going to be much higher too than S'pore. I prefer rural living than a urban here. (of course with certain amendities that i would prefer too to have with me in my possession heehee like my notebook and cable tv) The pace of living is too fast for me here.

Morning travelling to work. work. morning teabreak. work. lunchtime. work. afternoon teabreak. work. goes home after work. do homework. sleep late. Morning travelling to work.
work... ... ... ... and the cycle repeats itself. There's not enough time to complete my stuff. So many others events and things that are not relevant but still need to be done. Luckily i still got some form of life, I steal abit of time here and there to meet up with friends and make merry. But then again, i got to steal abit of time here and there to replace the time I've stolen. And this evil cycle goes on and on... 24 hours becomes nothing when i've stolen every second. So I've begin to steal my sleeping hours... now left 4 hours. Tonight, i am left with 3hours and 22mins. GOTTA SLEEP ....zzz zzz ZZZ ZZZ

Update

Pretty boring days for the past weeks, lots of work to do and missed a lot of sleep. Got recharged on weekends but still feeling extremely exhausted on weekdays. How to recharge with 3-4 hours of sleep? Homework need to be done, no ideas for my usms, where got the time? why the f*** one day is only 24 hours?

Went running with MZ on Monday, it has been quite awhile since we last ran. I had given all and MZ complained that I was running too fast. How can i be running too fast when she's able to catch up with me? Not I'm a MCP or what, but if she can catch up with me, then something must be wrong with me. Either I'm running too slow or I'm getting fat. I'm NOT FAT. So i ran F.A.S.T.E.R.

Bad idea. End results: more lethargic and exhausted, slept at during working hours. Worst, my thighs hurts. Now I sleep like a pig during my rest time. Die. Whatever f*** happen during my sleep, I don't know. S**t. I'm getting more and more like my nephew, who sleeps 24hours. Ha. A really piglet.

second kopi tea house branch

Closed down the previous blog site, this is still better. Now doing a test run, posting new posts and later continue mugging and hopefully can finish my homework with godspeed... ...